Nick

yea.

Mon, 20 Apr 2009 01:26:43 GMT

Basically;

Found a 3 bedroom house with a nice yard 2 car garage with a sweet ass living room dinning room and what nots. It's raw as shitttttttttt it will be mines!

well.

Sun, 04 Jan 2009 14:48:53 GMT

As of yesterday kenny and i got kicked out i have no where to go and no where near enough money to live alone. so yeah i'm fucked hes fucked idfk.

I actually.

Sat, 27 Dec 2008 05:27:38 GMT

Enjoy my job , Going there being there , Leaving there lol. All of it's good. It doesn't bother me I enjoy helping people , but Idiots thats just ridiculous. This man And I had a debate over literally nothing all day , he was like "why wuz thur shit loaded on my brand new ass compootar?" I was like "Listen , When Acers recovery discs are installed it preloads a bunch of programs that are unneeded and that's why we offered your the Optimization package that you declined." He got confused and said " but why wuz it loaded on thur?!" Lol It was to much I walked away from him and gave him to my GM today. Couldn't do it any more. =] But Christmas was more comical than anything else. I Got stuff pretty much directing in "GTFO" gifts. Toaster Oven , Toaster , Microwave , Dishes , Pans and pots , Knives , Silverware etc. It was ridiculous completely. lol Hope everyone had a great day yesterday.

i have so much to say.

Tue, 09 Dec 2008 10:55:24 GMT

But I'm not allowed =[ I feel like I've been stabbed in the heart 132 times with a poison tipped dagger. =[ =[ =[

lol today

Mon, 08 Dec 2008 20:05:50 GMT

I got home from school and got to talk to detectives! woot.

gay

Thu, 04 Dec 2008 18:33:41 GMT

lol police plus their guns plus mine and hayles faces equals fucked up.

I need

Tue, 02 Dec 2008 01:47:44 GMT

A second job only 3 days a week at 10.25 an hour wont cut it , I need at least 4 a week guaranteed days. Car , And moving out , and the new phone provider i'm getting so.... It's shitty as fuck. Seriously, This sucks ass I love love love lovvvvve my job but , hate hate hate hateeee , my hours. =/ it's so homo. =[ Faggotree i say. FAGGOTREE!

Nick.

Wed, 12 Nov 2008 22:45:27 GMT

Misses his boo!

soooo

Fri, 07 Nov 2008 19:42:24 GMT

Nikki and I are no longer going to be friends , I think shes a giant bitch and a horrible friend she needs to learn how to talk to a fucking human. Get her head out of her ass and grow up a bit. She pisses me off so hard core by telling me stupid shit about me and ashley not informing me that shes okay the other night and just being rude all the fucking time. Fuck her dude. She is the prime reason ashley and I argue occasionally She's a fucking worthless dick, And I'm not a fan of her. Ashley acts blunt and uncaring towards our relation ship how nikki is with Bob. But It's only in text messages when shes with her sometimes. Just drives me crazy how nikki is trying to take shit away from me such as, Halloween and christmas , That shit is getting old fast. I want her to be able to get used to my family so shes less shy and uncomfortable around them. But thats not going to work out. Fuck my life Fuck nikki , and fuck this I'm out.

And so it begins;

Fri, 07 Nov 2008 15:16:21 GMT

School....10 minutes to relax , then workkkk. ugh. I love it and hate it.

Sadness.

Sat, 01 Nov 2008 03:33:45 GMT

We are one and only one , my Understanding of you is everything but unsure.
Your pains and regrets have no cure , but i'll always be here when you fall.
Fall and I'll catch you, Memories fade and die as long as we let them.
Don't worry you'll be fine , Just wake up and find what you have.
I'll always be here to hold you up, now don't fade away....
My tears only fall for you , Not over.
We are one...And only one..Trust me , I can help.

I love you.

nick has problems..

Sat, 01 Nov 2008 03:30:46 GMT

It's the light i can bare.
The soft touch of your hair.

Your smile lasts a life time
But it's your eyes i wish were mine.
I'm blind...

With regret I speak...
And I weep.

I'm on my knees now, Please...
Stay with me, You're my keys.
I'm your being.

No one opinion matters as much as you mean to me.
The image of you is focused and always clear.
I never wish to be with out you boo.

whats wrong with me...

Sat, 01 Nov 2008 03:27:58 GMT

I'll paint my soul black.
Just to hear her laugh

Her hair blows weightlessly through the wind.
And shes what I depend.

Her eyes of sky blue...
They make me mood.

its true.

I love you.

I love you.

She means so much to me....

Sat, 01 Nov 2008 03:26:05 GMT

I love you ,

I crave you.

You're all I need.

All I need to breath.

Yet I feel second in your heart.

This doubt is meaningless with out fact.

I feel like a hack.

I'm going to have a heart attack.

I love you.

crave you...

need you.

Tue, 21 Oct 2008 22:00:48 GMT

Hey , Been a while. Need to update more again. But My life is getting a bit better I haven't missed school in a month I'm doing well in it also , I have no job still no insurance still but My dad and I are on talking terms again and I've been cleaning his house for him. So hopefully by the time I'm 18 I'll have a whip. My uncles been helping me ouch muchos grande'. He's been going out out of his way to help me get to school find a job and do better with myself. I'm trying so desperately hard but only inching my way to greatness. At least it isn't declining any more , I'm almost at a perfect steady level were I'm happy. I work out again so I'll be in shape again. I'm getting retardedly fat though 157 =[. I mean it doesn't show but the number for real bothers me considering how much I weighed last year , ya know? It's douche. I'm now just waiting for Ashley to come over to watch movies. Shes going to apply at St. ive's tomorrow. I applied at Burger King and have an Application for drug mart on rockside. Hopefully something turns out just gotta keep the chin up mang. peace.

Bc13 mother fucker

Wed, 17 Sep 2008 05:00:50 GMT

My dome hurts.

Wed, 03 Sep 2008 18:05:00 GMT

Hey so it's been hectic lately, With the entire Ashley situation. Shes been over since Saturday and she was going to go home last night -aka Nikki's appartment- and when she left I walked back to my house and her mom drove up to me like yelling at me asking me a million questions i didn't know the answer to and had to try and lie to her and tell her everything Ashley said but it didn't work out to well she made me call Ashley and they talked on the phone and Ashley cousin Michael was trying to scare me saying "well you're definitively lucky Joel(Ashley's dad) didn't come because he would have beat your ass." I was just nodding and kind of chuckling thinking "damn you guys are psycho." But yeah it took a good two hours out of my life and they didn't even have the decency to say good bye they rolled up the window and drove off. I called ashley as soon as they weren't in sight and she came back. But it's crazy mang. haha peace.

Sat, 02 Aug 2008 13:27:33 GMT

Yeah so hayle's a douche bag if you're affiliated with her i suggest you completely drop her as an acquaintance friend etc. She needs to go burn in a fire.

This week is hectic.

Tue, 15 Jul 2008 03:04:26 GMT

I have way to much on my plate right now , I have driving school directly after work , and I work way to early. My bikes been quite the let down and almost costed me my job. I cannot do anything after work or after school because it's always way to late at night. And I'm currently flat broke because of driving school , and once i get my car fixed I'll be in debt to my father i owe him 250 right now , and i have to throw down 150 for gaskets I also need to throw down 200 bucks for insurance. so I got to throw down 600 to him next check. I can't believe that I'm going to be broke. Mom said shes going to throw down gas money for me but It's gonna be a fucking bitch til I'm caught up secondary job here i come. I'm so fucked. I don't have to drive a lot but just the thought of doing all this bull shit is annoying hehe. Save meeeeeeeee. I miss you guys come home.

soooooooo

Thu, 19 Jun 2008 01:42:09 GMT

Ashley and I are dating now i guess... I wasn't sure if we were or weren't and actually said that to her and just asked her out. I felt stupid but what Ev. Going to Nikki's party on Saturday you batch. Ashley and I hung out from four until 5 minutes ago at 9:35. we had a lot of fun! =]

Why am I so sad?

Sat, 07 Jun 2008 20:07:36 GMT

Like for real. I'll see her again but right now it's damn near impossible. I really hate relying on others and ruining their plans because I'm a ma'fuggin' burden. I'll be driving soon enough. But I think my plans of moving and being on my own are a bust. I really want to but I still have to deal with school shit. And That ruins things. And I don't know if I really want to be a doctor anymore... Family and friends are more important to me then money. I'd much rather bust my ass and work myself to death so i can have time for them then Either Save or End a persons life. But my point is that when I have a car I'm stealing her.... shes never going home again. Easier then it sounds? But in reality getting her to separate from her family is going to be horrible. And I feel like a piece of shit because shes leaving her family behind for this shitty "real world".

Can you trust your best friend? I cant.

Sat, 17 May 2008 04:47:20 GMT

I'm cool and write lyrics lawls.

The messenger came out of nowhere.The name was clear, yet unreachable
All around us and we never even thought to look, it is tearing us apart.
This is Fact, the message is clear.You cannot deny it.They are here.
The reminder was vague,Oh the lesson so glorious Our hearts were made For a much higher purpose.You wouldnt think everything happens for a reason.
The greet, the meet, the kiss, the fight, the break, the tears, the lies, the knife.Stay away from the emergency exit, we aren’t quite done yet.
We're staring and staring and staring into those blank eyes.It is burning
The messenger was here.Be careful of that mind of yours, they say.
It can play tricks on you when your lead astray.Pollute the mind and your asking for it.Thinking that life matters is an understatement.There is a larger war going on than guns and missiles,and it is too close for comfort.I have found deeper meaning in this game.I have found deeper meaning.And I am scared to hell because of it.But I know, I will not look away.Fear is another way of saying that you too have realized, the deep secrets of mankind.And is there a reward for winning the game?You will simply, be left behind.

This is the fact.
The message is clear.
You cannot deny it.
He is here.

May 6th

Tue, 06 May 2008 21:31:32 GMT

Ashley and I finally had our talk and such. And I was to nervous to tell her that I , you know. So After I said bye I walked all the way to 71st thinking -crap crap crap crap I have to do it crap- so I turned around and I walked up to her as she was walking up to me , And I got close and sighed, and said well here it goes , I etc.... It's really awkward to say and I'm really shy about It more than ever before and I don't understand it. I have really strong feelings for her.ughhhhhhhhh I'm a faggot yo.

Sun, 13 Apr 2008 21:16:15 GMT

I had a heart to heart with one of my friends recently, whom is a male which is odd. Regardless,after the talk I realized something , I'm over it and am finally happy again. It took me so damn long to heal from it and it never left my mind it was always in the back of my head stabbing me. I no longer obese over something i lost. I'm really glad that it's over, so much weight has lifted off of my shoulders. I feel so relaxed now it's really quite amazing. I feel like i can breath normal and be calm again. And be a dick to people without thinking twice will be easy again. I'm excited for the summer now that I'm back to myself.

Fri, 28 Mar 2008 01:11:00 GMT

Fuck the flue. I hate it.